Ok, before you all sigh, yes I know I’m only 24 and I’ve got my whole life ahead of me, but nonetheless this year is the year that I really, honestly started to feel old and I wanted to put these thoughts down, as I’m sure I’m not alone in this feeling. It totally sucks, but here are a few things that are making me feel old before I should.
1. Feeling Stressed
Since moving to Greater London in 2011 and officially starting my career, I can officially say that for the first time I’ve encountered stress for the first time and I can say that I certainly don’t cope with it well. Weird thing is that I don’t feel stressed, but it’s been really presenting itself in other ways. Last Winter stress triggered my skin to start behaving in a weird way, I’ve got really bad spots for the first time ever and nothing is budging them, they come and go, but it all stems from stress. I’ve been to the doctors more times than ever before for niggly things, I’ve not solved them all yet, but I have a big feeling that they are also stress related.
Did you know that feeling stressed causes a release of cortisol into the skin, prolonged increase in cortisol are shown to increase the chances of your body presenting problems. So, for example if you are prone to oily skin, being stressed and having too much cortisol in your system over a period of time will cause your oily skin to become oilier, the same thing can apply to any other skin condition or illness.
It’s really difficult to deal with stress, I don’t really know where to start with this one, I know that feeling less stressed will help my other problems, but when my skin and health are part of the reasons why I’m feeling stressed it’s a bit annoying.
2. Don’t Know What to Wear
I’ve always gone through phases of not knowing what to wear, as I’ve ranted before I find it really hard to buy clothes for lots of reasons, but right now I’m just in a really bad mood with my wardrobe, almost at a point that I just want to get rid of everything and start again. It’s not nice. I don’t know if this problem is actually about me feeling old or a continuation of the frustration of finding it hard to shop for the types of clothes that I want to wear.
Clothes are important, they are a way to express yourself, enhance your confidence and to make you feel comfortable. So although sometimes it sounds like a stupid, girly thing to be bothered about, I think it’s quite important to any woman.
3. Next Steps
So, despite being only 24, I’ve been married for two years and with hubby for nearly 8 years! Our closest friends have just had their first child and there are lots of babies in the family now, the thought that realistically we could be next is actually starting to terrify me! Although I really want children, I really don’t think we’re ready, I want to buy a house first and that alone seem a distant dream!
By 24, my parents owned a house, got married and had their first child and that was normal. Now, I don’t see when that’s going to happen for our generation, what happened there then?
When did you first start feeling old?
Do you recognise some of the feelings above?
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