Holy moly, so much has happened in the past months, if you don’t know what’s going on, first off I ask you to read my previous blog post which will get you up to speed on the going on in my ever changing life. Tomorrow I turn 25, yes that is still young, but it’s also quarter of a century old and also the age at which I was expecting to be having my first child based on having been with the same guy since I was 16. Oh, how things have changed. Yes, I’m relieved that I don’t have children and that I’m not in that position now, as I’m having so much fun catching up on life. Honestly, I can’t believe how much I missed out on whilst I was at Uni in particular, yes, I had other great experience that others may not have had, but lots of things that many take for granted, I hadn’t even touched on.
It is also a strange place to be right now, I feel like I’ve got two different versions of myself that are trying to combine into one. There’s the old me from when I was married and in a very long term relationship and then there’s the new me, who does hold lots of the same characteristics of the old me, but also lots of new ones too. I have two groups of friends at the moment too and it’s interesting to see how they can see the change, as everyone new that I’m meeting only knows me for the present version. Confusing huh? Does anyone know what I’m on about? Basically, what I’m getting at is that people change a lot when they’re in a relationship, so when these come to a end, you have to rediscover yourself, for me, this rediscovery is something that I should have gone through as a teenager, so it feels odd to be going through it whilst working full time in a great job. Very odd.
Another thing that I thought I would be doing by 25 was buying a house. Even though, let’s be honest, trying to buy something in London is pretty much never going to happen. Instead, I’m going through sorting out my stuff and selling all the furniture I’ve accumulated in favour of moving into a shared house (for the first time ever!) in East London of all places! I’ve always had a love/hate relationship with East London, but I’m reckoning if I can stay the Spitalfields site of Shoreditch, it will be a good move. I’m also moving in with a rather kick ass friend of mine, so I’m sure it’s going to be a lot of fun.
I also thought I would have switched to working part time by now, that was part of the plan when I was in a relationship. I was going to work at home on my own business, with a pet dog and raise some babies. Now I’m thankful that I’m not doing that, one day perhaps, but no way do I want to do that in my twenties. Instead, I’m in a busy, fast paced industry working with super fun people and in a sector that I’m a huge fan of. Why would I want to leave that right now?
Now that I’m outside of my relationship I can clearly see that it wasn’t the right path for me and I’m sure that my friends will agree, but when you’re involved with someone like that you don’t realise. My advise to anyone in a long term relationship is to make sure that you’re not missing out on life and that you are together for the right reasons. Commitment is hard work. I’m loving life right now and even though I’m still going to have some bad days, I’m having so much fun and have met so many awesome friends recently. I want to take this little opportunity to thank those who have helped me through things so far, you all know who you are and you are amazing, I hope you realise how much of a much needed impact you’ve had on my life so far. I love you all.
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