Stupid blog post title, I know. Couldn’t resist. And here’s my inspiration…
I cut my hair into a fringe, dyed it orange, started wearing brighter clothes and make up. Started listening to my own music choices again, watching what I wanted on television, eating what I wanted. For the first time in a very long time I feel like myself again. I didn’t realise at the time how much I had adapted to the situation, but right now I realise that I had changed and I needed to get back to being myself. Right now, I feel amazing about myself.
Being with the same person since the age of 16 also meant that I had never really dated, so I’ve gotten myself into online dating and have been dating for the first time ever, which is proving a lot of fun. I don’t know what will happen, but at least I’ll have fun. Everyone I’ve met has been interesting, so even if nothing else comes of anything, I’ve met some interesting potential friends.
For the past 7 years or so I haven’t been much of a drinker, I don’t really know why but it’s never really been for me. I’ve not been a frequent pub or bar goer and had never been in a club, ever. I used to go to gigs, but I see that in a different category. So, since splitting with hubby, I’ve had my first ever vodka shot and last night under the influence of London Beauty Queen and Stu Bradley I spent a wonderful night in Soho, I drank my first Jagerbomb and was dancing like a complete fool to Spice Girls, Bieber and Lady Gaga in a gay night club. I honestly never thought I would be doing that, yet I had so much fun. I feel like I’ve broken out of my shell and that I can be adventurous and not worry as much as I used to.
I started a new job recently, with amazing brands and amazing people and I’m very happy there too. So basically, although this all stems from something very sad, it’s ultimately been an excellent change which has made me a stronger, happier and more confident person. I don’t have any regrets about my past, but wanted to take this opportunity to be open with my readers and share with you a few thing that I’ve learnt.
Don’t change for anyone, be yourself and the version of yourself that makes you happy, if someone doesn’t like it, they aren’t worth being with. You can’t change the past, so don’t regret it, everything becomes part of you and helps you grow, so see the positives in all the mistakes you may have made. Seize the day, if you want to do something, do it! Don’t make excuses and don’t be afraid, you’ll have more fun that way.
I’ll be back to blogging properly soon, but just wanted to put that out there and let you know where I’m at.
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